HollyAndTea

Jun 20 · Posted

50 and wide awake at 3am again last night, lying there doing that thing where you try to work out if you're anxious because you woke up or if you woke up because you're anxious. genuinely cannot tell anymore. it's been nearly every night this month. heart going a bit, nothing specific to worry about, just that low-level dread that sits on your chest until about 5am when you finally drop off again and then obviously the alarm goes at 6:30. honestly i don't know if this is peri or if it's just. life. stress. my brain being horrible to me. but i'm 50 and my periods have gone a bit unpredictable so maybe that's something. i've got a GP appointment coming up and i want to actually ask about HRT properly this time, specifically whether it can help with the sleep rather than just flushing. has anyone gone in and asked that directly? i always lose my thread the moment i sit down. also someone in another thread mentioned protein at breakfast helping with energy levels through the day and i've quietly started doing eggs in the morning instead of nothing, which is. fine. not life changing. but i feel slightly less desperate by 11am so i'll take it. cutting back on wine on weeknights too because i read it disrupts sleep in the second half of the night which, yes, that tracks. just wanted to say it out loud to people who might actually get it x

Jun 14 · Posted

50 next month and I keep waking up at 3am on the dot. Like clockwork. Not needing the loo, not a noise, just... eyes open, heart going, brain immediately catastrophising about something that wasn't even on my radar before bed. I've been going back and forth on whether it's peri or just the general weight of everything right now. Work is heavy, the kids are at that age where every conversation feels like defusing something, and my husband's idea of support is saying "have you tried going to bed earlier". So. Could be stress, right? Except I've had stressful patches before and I didn't feel like this. I've got a GP appointment coming up and I genuinely want to ask about HRT and sleep specifically, not just be handed a leaflet about sleep hygiene. Does anyone know how to phrase it so it doesn't sound vague? I always go in knowing exactly what I want to say and then I just... don't say it. Also, randomly, I started having a proper breakfast with eggs or Greek yoghurt instead of just coffee and I think it's helping with the mid-morning anxiety spiral? Maybe coincidence. But I'm paying attention to it. Anyway. Hi. I've been reading this room for weeks and it's the first thing that's made me feel less like I'm quietly falling apart on my own x

Jun 5 · Posted

Right so. 3am again. Lying there absolutely wide awake, heart going a bit, brain cycling through nothing important. I've had this on and off for months now and I genuinely cannot work out if it's peri or if it's just... life. Work is full on, kids are stressful, the world is a lot. But it doesn't feel like worry-waking if that makes sense? There's no actual thought attached to it. I just surface, clock says 3-something, and that's it for a couple of hours. I've got a GP appointment coming up and I want to ask properly about HRT and sleep specifically, not just get fobbed off with "have you tried sleep hygiene" (I have, thanks). Does anyone know if there's a particular way to frame the sleep question so it doesn't get dismissed as just stress? Also I've been cutting back on wine in the week which honestly I think is helping a tiny bit, and I've started having a proper breakfast with eggs or something rather than just coffee. No idea if any of this is connected but I feel marginally less destroyed by 11am so I'm counting it. x