14 Jun
50 next month and I keep waking up at 3am on the dot. Like clockwork. Not needing the loo, not a noise, just... eyes open, heart going, brain immediately catastrophising about something that wasn't even on my radar before bed. I've been going back and forth on whether it's peri or just the general weight of everything right now. Work is heavy, the kids are at that age where every conversation feels like defusing something, and my husband's idea of support is saying "have you tried going to bed earlier". So. Could be stress, right? Except I've had stressful patches before and I didn't feel like this. I've got a GP appointment coming up and I genuinely want to ask about HRT and sleep specifically, not just be handed a leaflet about sleep hygiene. Does anyone know how to phrase it so it doesn't sound vague? I always go in knowing exactly what I want to say and then I just... don't say it. Also, randomly, I started having a proper breakfast with eggs or Greek yoghurt instead of just coffee and I think it's helping with the mid-morning anxiety spiral? Maybe coincidence. But I'm paying attention to it. Anyway. Hi. I've been reading this room for weeks and it's the first thing that's made me feel less like I'm quietly falling apart on my own x