48 and I've started waking at 3am on the dot. Like clockwork. Wide awake, heart doing something weird, brain immediately going to every problem I've ever had since 1994. I keep telling myself it's stress (work is a lot right now, kids are a lot right now, everything is a lot right now). But I've had stressful periods before and I never woke up like THIS. There's something different about it. Like my body is running a separate programme I didn't agree to. I've got a GP appointment next week and I'm actually writing things down this time because I know the second I sit in that chair my mind will go blank and I'll say "I'm a bit tired" and she'll suggest iron tablets and I'll walk out having said none of the actual things. So I'm keeping a rough timeline. When the waking started (about four months ago I think). Whether it's every night or just some nights. What the anxiety feels like when it hits at 3am versus during the day. That kind of thing. Also quietly trying to cut the weeknight wine. Not because anyone told me to, just because I started wondering if it was making the waking worse. Only a week in so no conclusions yet. And I've been going out for a walk after dinner a few nights. Genuinely don't know if it's doing anything but it gets me off the sofa and away from my phone so probably not hurting. Anyone else gone into a GP appointment feeling like their symptoms sound too vague to be taken seriously? That's my main fear honestly. x
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