13 Jun
ok so I said I wasn't going to post until I had something actually useful to say and I'm still not sure I do but here goes I've had a better week. Not a perfect week, not a fixed week, just. better. and I want to write it down somewhere before I convince myself it didn't happen. Background for anyone who doesn't know me: I've been on HRT for about four months now, still finding the right balance with my GP, and about eight weeks ago I started being more deliberate about food and movement. Not a programme, not a plan with a name, just trying to eat something with actual protein before 9am and get outside for even ten minutes after lunch. That's it. That's the whole thing. This week I slept through three nights in a row. THREE. I haven't done that since probably 2022. The hot flushes are still there but they felt less violent somehow, like my body was doing them at a lower volume. Mood has been steadier. I didn't cry in the Tesco car park which is basically a personal best at this point 😂 I'm not saying any of this caused anything. I genuinely don't know. It could be the HRT finally settling, could be the sleep helping the mood helping everything else, could be that the weather was nicer and I was outside more. I'm keeping notes because I want to be able to tell my GP what's actually changed when I go back in six weeks. What I do know is that eight weeks ago I was frightened. Like properly frightened that I was just going to feel like this forever. And I want anyone who's in that place right now to know that things can shift. I don't know when or how for you, I really don't. But they can. Anyway. Logging it here. Back to my slightly cooler, slightly less chaotic life 🤞 x