4d ago
Sixty years old and I signed up to a beginner strength class online and then just... didn't do it. Three weeks in a row. The video is still sitting there in my browser tabs like a little accusation. I don't know what I'm frightened of exactly. It's not the exercises themselves. I think it's starting something and my body just refusing, or looking ridiculous doing a squat with no weight while some instructor shouts encouragement at me through a screen. I had a career. I ran a department. I should not be intimidated by a YouTube video aimed at fifty-somethings. What I have actually managed is the mobility stuff before bed. That I can do. Fifteen minutes on the mat, nothing dramatic, and I sleep marginally better on the nights I do it. That part feels genuinely mine now. The tiredness is the thing that stops me going further though. I don't know if it's post-menopausal normal or if it's a ceiling I need to flag to my GP before I push into anything more demanding. My instinct is to ask her what my actual limits are rather than guess and then either give up or overdo it and pay for it for days. Also noticed I feel less dreadful on the days I eat something with a bit of protein after I've moved, even just the bed stretches. Eggs, some cheese, whatever's quick. Don't know if it's connected but I'm noticing it. Anyway. The class tab is still open. Maybe this week. x