13 Jun
Polly, 50. I keep going round in circles on this and I genuinely don't know where to land. I've been exhausted and foggy for the best part of two years and my brain just... isn't the same. Words disappear mid-sentence. I'll be in a meeting and lose the thread of what I was saying while I'm actually saying it. Last week I called our head of comms by the wrong name. I've worked with her for four years. But here's the thing. I also work full time, I've got two teenagers who between them have the emotional regulation of a pair of wasps, my mum had a health scare last spring, and I haven't had a proper night's sleep since roughly 2019. So is this perimenopause or is my brain just... full? Burnt through? I've started going to bed at the same time every night regardless, even weekends, because someone on here mentioned sleep routine ages ago and I thought fine, I'll try it, I've tried everything else. It's only been a few weeks. Hard to say yet. What I do know is that I want to go to my GP with something more concrete than "I feel a bit dim". So I've been writing things down. Actual examples. Forgot the word for "invoice" in a client call. Sent the same email twice. Couldn't follow the thread of a document I wrote myself six months ago. That kind of thing. I want to ask whether any of this is hormonal or whether I'm just a knackered middle-aged woman who needs a holiday. Both could be true I suppose. That's what's so maddening about all of this. x