42 and I have basically become a woman made entirely of Post-it notes. Every meeting I go into now, I've got a little notebook open on the table. Used to think people who did that were just being performative. Now I understand. If I don't write the word down the second it comes to me, it is gone. Not misplaced. Gone. Like it was never there. Had a one-to-one with my manager last week and she asked me to summarise the Q3 priorities and I just... sat there. Four seconds of absolute silence that felt like four minutes. I could see the shape of what I wanted to say, I just couldn't find the actual words. Eventually got there but honestly I wanted to cry in the car on the way home. I've started prepping a rough bullet list before any meeting that matters. Just three or four points so I've got something to anchor to if my brain decides to go offline mid-sentence. It does help. Not a cure, just a handrail. Also noticed the worst of it hits around 3pm. I've started keeping some mixed nuts and a bit of dark chocolate at my desk because the afternoon crash seems to make the fog so much worse and at least if I've eaten something I can half function until I get home. I want to talk to my GP about it but I feel a bit daft saying "I forgot a word in a meeting" like that's a medical complaint. Is that enough to bring up? Has anyone actually managed to explain the work impact in a way that got taken seriously? x
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