12 Jun
Sixty and I keep opening YouTube videos of beginner strength workouts then closing them again. I've done this probably eight times this month. Something about the women in the thumbnails, all bouncy and coordinated, makes me feel like this wasn't made for me even though it says BEGINNER in big letters. I did eventually manage ten minutes of stretching and a few very unimpressive squats last Tuesday. My knees were not happy. Not in a sharp way, more like a low grumbling complaint that lasted into the next morning. I don't know if that's just where I am now or if I'm doing something wrong or both. The fatigue is the other thing. I genuinely cannot tell if I'm tired because I'm not moving enough or not moving because I'm tired. It feels like a locked door with the key on the wrong side. I've started doing a bit of gentle stretching before bed, nothing structured, just whatever feels tight. Honestly that part has been fine. It doesn't feel like exercise which is maybe why I can actually do it. I had a GP appointment coming up and I was going to skip the movement stuff entirely but I think I want to actually ask about the fatigue, like where the line is between pushing through and making things worse. I don't want to be told to just do some yoga. I want an actual conversation about it. Anyone else navigating this? The wanting to do something but the body being a bit uncooperative and the brain being even worse? x