Amanda

13 Jun

I was mid-sentence in a team meeting this morning. Knew exactly what I wanted to say. And the word just... wasn't there. Gone. I said "the thing, the overview thing" and my manager finished my sentence for me and everyone moved on but I sat there feeling absolutely mortified. This is happening more and more. I've been in this job twelve years. I know what I'm doing. But lately I feel like I'm performing competence rather than just having it, if that makes sense. I don't know if it's peri or burnout or both. Probably both. But I'm starting to write things down because I want to be able to describe it properly at some point rather than just saying I'm a bit foggy. It's not a bit foggy. It's unsettling x