7d ago
46 and I have been pretty quiet on here but I need to say this somewhere because I honestly did not think I would feel this much better this fast. Last month I was a wreck. Like genuinely scared of myself. The sleep was shot, the rage was unreal, I cried at a FedEx notification. So yeah. Not great. This past week though. Something shifted. I don't fully understand it and I'm not going to pretend I do. But here's what's different for me personally: I started eating the same breakfast every single morning. Eggs and some kind of grain, sometimes leftover rice, sometimes oats. Nothing fancy. I just stopped making it a decision. That's it. That's the whole breakfast thing. Turns out decision fatigue at 6am was quietly destroying me. Also I have a follow-up with my OBGYN on Thursday and I actually have things to REPORT this time instead of just crying at her. Sleep is more consistent. Mood is less like a live wire. I wrote it all down so I don't blank when she asks how I've been doing. I'm being careful not to get too excited because last time I had a good week I got cocky and then crashed hard. But this feels different. Steadier maybe. If you're in the really dark part right now, I just want you to know I was there like four weeks ago and I'm not there today. That's all I've got. 💛