15 Jun
46, been awake since quarter past three and I have absolutely no idea what this is. Not anxious about anything specific. House is fine, kids are fine, work is manageable. Just... awake. Heart going a bit fast, mind sort of humming with nothing, and that's it for the night apparently. It happens maybe four times a week now. Has done for months. I keep thinking stress because, well, life, but something about the regularity of it is making me wonder if there's something else going on. A colleague mentioned perimenopause almost in passing and I laughed it off and then spent the whole drive home googling. I've started going out after dinner, just round the block really, nothing impressive. Partly because I read something vague about it helping sleep and partly because I needed to do SOMETHING instead of just lying there catastrophising at 3am. Jury's still out on whether it's working. I want to see my GP but I genuinely don't know how to explain this without sounding like I'm moaning about being a bit tired. "I wake up early and feel a bit anxious" sounds so nothing on paper. I'm half convinced she'll just say sleep hygiene and send me away. Does anyone have any idea how to make vague symptoms sound like actual symptoms worth investigating? Because I feel like I need a script. x