6d ago
Sixty years old and I cannot lift a bag of compost without my knees making that noise. You know the one. I keep looking at the beginner strength videos online and then closing the tab. Everyone in them is already... fit? Like they've already done the intimidating bit and now they're just demonstrating. Nobody shows you the part where you're standing in your living room at 7pm wondering if a resistance band is going to finish you off. I did try something this week though. Twenty minutes of very slow stretching before bed, three nights in a row. Nothing dramatic. Just working through my hips and shoulders because they're both furious with me for some reason I cannot identify. And honestly? I slept better on those nights. Not fixed, not transformed, just... less like a plank of wood by morning. The fatigue is what I'm most worried about taking to the GP. I don't know how to explain that I want to move more but the tiredness is like a wall some days. I don't want her to say "well just go for walks" as if I haven't thought of that. I want to talk about what's actually safe to build up to given where I am. Whether there are limits I should know about. I feel like I need permission almost, which is a strange thing to admit. Also started having a bit of protein after I do anything physical, even just the stretching, because I read something about it and thought well, it can't hurt. Egg on toast mostly. Nothing fancy. Anyway. Still more tab-closing than actual exercise but the bedtime mobility thing is real and I'm keeping it. x