12 Jun
Right so it's 3.17am and here I am again. Every single night this week. I lie there completely awake, heart going a bit fast, mind just... running. Nothing specific. No obvious thing to worry about. Just awake. I genuinely cannot tell if this is peri or if I've just become a person who's anxious now. I'm 46. I've never had sleep problems before in my life. My mum went through the menopause and she never mentioned anything like this so I don't know what I'm comparing it to. The thing I keep getting stuck on is that when I try to explain it to anyone it sounds so vague. 'I wake up at night.' 'I feel a bit anxious.' My GP is going to look at me like I've come in about nothing, I know she will. I've been trying to think about what I'd actually say in that room because my brain goes completely blank the second I sit down. I started going out for a walk after tea this week, just round the block, nothing dramatic. I don't know if it's done anything yet but at least it's something I can actually control? I made a very lazy dinner tonight (pasta, jar of sauce, done) specifically so I had the energy to go out afterwards. Small victories. Anyone else been dismissed when symptoms feel hard to put into words? How did you get your GP to take it seriously? x