7d ago
Right so the anxiety thing is driving me absolutely mad because there's nothing wrong. Like, objectively. Kids are fine, job is fine, marriage is fine. And yet I wake up at 3am with this horrible dread sitting on my chest and I genuinely cannot tell you what it's about. It's not worry exactly. It's more like my body decided something terrible is happening and forgot to tell my brain what it is. I'm 50 and I've started wondering if this is peri doing its thing rather than me just quietly losing my mind. The randomness of it is what gets me. No trigger. No bad news. Just... dread, out of nowhere, usually mid-afternoon or in the small hours. I've got a GP appointment next month and I'm already stressing about how to explain it without sounding vague and melodramatic. My main question I want to ask is whether HRT can help with sleep and this kind of background anxiety or whether it's just for flushes. Because I don't have many flushes. Mostly I have this. On a practical note I started having a proper breakfast with eggs or Greek yoghurt a few weeks ago instead of just coffee, and I genuinely think my mornings are slightly less bleak? Could be coincidence. Probably is. But I'm noting it anyway. Dinner has been absolute carnage recently, I'm not going to pretend otherwise. Beans on toast twice this week. I've stopped feeling guilty about it. Anyone managed to articulate the unprovoked anxiety thing to their GP without getting the "have you tried mindfulness" brush-off? x