7d ago
Right. Sixty and I have finally admitted to myself that I am scared of the gym. Not embarrassed exactly, more just... I walked past one last week and the music was so loud I could feel it through the door and I thought absolutely not. I am not doing that. I don't want a transformation. I don't want a coach with a clipboard telling me to push through. I just want to not feel like my body is falling apart. I've been doing some stretching before bed, nothing structured, just whatever feels like it might help my hips and shoulders, and honestly it's the only thing I've kept up for more than a week in about two years. So maybe that's something. The fatigue is the bit I'm most stuck on. I want to ask my GP whether there's a level of tired where you're actually supposed to rest rather than push through, because I genuinely cannot tell anymore. Is the fatigue a reason not to move or a reason to move more gently? I've been getting conflicting things from every article I read and I'd rather just ask someone who knows my situation. Also started eating something with a bit of protein after I've moved, even if it's just a handful of nuts or some cheese on a cracker. No idea if it's doing anything but it feels like I'm taking the whole thing slightly more seriously than before. Which is maybe the bar right now and I'm choosing to be fine with that.