4d ago
46 and I have genuinely been lying awake since half two wondering whether this is just... life now? Like is this stress or is something actually happening to me hormonally? I cannot tell anymore. The 3am thing has been going on for months. I wake up, heart going a bit, nothing specific in my head, just wide and alert like someone flicked a switch. Then I'm exhausted all day and absolutely useless by 7pm. I started going out for a walk after dinner last week. Thought I'd try anything honestly. No idea if it's helping the sleep or if I'm just tricking myself into thinking I'm doing something. Maybe both. The bit I'm dreading is the GP. Because what do I actually say? "I wake up at 3am and feel anxious but I don't know why"? That sounds like I need therapy not hormones. I'm worried she'll just nod and refer me somewhere and that'll be that. Does anyone have any advice on how to describe this stuff so it doesn't just sound vague and a bit pathetic? I want to say the right thing but my brain goes completely blank the moment I sit down in that room x