10 Jun
42 and I genuinely feel like a teenager again except not in a good way. Spare knickers in my bag. Dark trousers only. Working out which meetings I can actually stand up in. The last six months have been all over the place. Sometimes three weeks apart, sometimes five. Sometimes it arrives like a tap someone forgot to turn off. Last Tuesday I had to leave a training session early and I just said I had a headache because what else do you say. I've started writing it all down now, not because I'm organised but because I knew if I went to the GP and she asked how long it had been like this I'd just say "a while" and stare at the ceiling. So now I have actual dates. Flow notes. How wiped out I was on which days. Whether I could function or whether I was on the sofa by seven. The tiredness is the bit that's hardest to explain to people. It's not normal tired. It's a specific kind of flat where even talking feels like effort. Anyone else tracking this stuff before their appointment? What did you actually find useful to bring? x