GP appointment Thursday and I am absolutely dreading walking in there and going blank. Every time. I have this whole list of things in my head on the drive over and then I sit down and she asks how she can help and I say something like "oh just a bit tired I think" and come home having mentioned precisely none of it. So this week I have been writing things down as they happen. Woke at 3.17am Tuesday, heart going, that low-level dread that doesn't attach to anything specific. Same Wednesday. Wrote it in my notes app straight away while it was real. I want to be able to show her an actual pattern rather than shrug and say "some nights are bad". The main thing I want to ask about is whether broken sleep like this can be a peri symptom even when I'm not having obvious night sweats every night. And whether HRT can actually help with sleep specifically, or whether that's not really what it's for. I don't want to go in asking for something she'll think is unreasonable. I just want to feel like myself again at work. I'm 52, my periods are all over the place, and I am so tired of being tired. Also started having a proper breakfast this week after years of just coffee. Eggs or yoghurt, something with a bit of substance. No idea if it's connected to anything but I feel slightly less desperate by 11am which is something. Anyway. Wish me luck Thursday x