12 Jun
46 and awake again at 3.17am writing this on my phone in the dark so my husband doesn't notice. It's been happening for weeks now. Wide awake, heart going a bit, brain immediately full of absolute nonsense like whether I replied to that email in 2019. Nothing dramatic. Just... awake. Completely, stupidly awake. The thing I keep going round in circles on is: is this peri or is this just my life? Because my life IS stressful. Teenagers, full time job, the usual. So how do you even separate it out? How do I walk into the GP and say "I wake up at 3am" without them just going "well, have you tried not being stressed" and sending me on my way. I've started going out for a walk after dinner, nothing long, just round the block a couple of times. Partly to tire myself out, partly because I read something on here about it helping the transition into sleep. Don't know if it's doing anything yet but it gets me off the sofa so that's something I suppose. Also trying to keep dinner light and not too late. Less wine on weeknights (gutting but there we go). I do have a GP appointment next week and I genuinely don't know how to explain any of this without sounding vague and a bit dramatic. "I don't feel like myself" is true but it sounds like nothing. "I'm tired" sounds like nothing. How do you make it land?