6d ago
42 and genuinely caught between two worlds here. Downloaded one of those cycle apps last year and it kept suggesting I track "fertile windows" and sending me little seedling emojis. Thanks, no. But then I look at menopause forums and everyone seems to be talking about things that feel years ahead of where I am and I quietly close the tab feeling like a fraud. My cycles have been... odd. Not dramatically odd. Just odd enough that I've noticed. Used to be like clockwork, now it's 26 days, then 34, then 29, and I can't tell if that's just my body being 42 or something actually shifting. My GP last year said "that's within normal range" and moved on fairly swiftly. I've started keeping a little notes doc on my phone. Not anything fancy, just the date my period starts, how I felt the week before, whether the anxiety was bad. I want to be able to go back to my GP with something more than "I just feel a bit off". Because every time I try to explain it out loud it sounds like I'm describing being a normal tired working mum and I end up half-apologising for being there. Also started making sure I actually eat breakfast before anything else in the morning. Genuinely helps the 11am wobbliness. That's the whole revelation, sorry 😂 Anyone else in this weird in-between bit? x