5d ago
51 and I have a GP appointment on Thursday and I am already dreading the bit where she asks me what's been going on and my mind just goes completely blank. So I've started writing things down this week. Not for anyone else, just so I can hand it over if I have to. Waking between 3 and 4am most nights, sometimes drenched, sometimes just lying there with my heart going. The anxiety that arrives for absolutely no reason by about 6am. The way I forgot my own postcode last Tuesday and stood there in Boots looking like a complete idiot. I've been tracking sleep and mood since Sunday, just a few words in my notes app each morning. I wanted to see if there was a pattern before I sat in that room and tried to explain it out loud and made it all sound much vaguer than it actually is. I also want to ask about HRT specifically, whether it can help with the sleep side of things, because that's honestly what's wrecking me most. The tiredness is manageable. The 3am waking is not. I've cut the wine back on weeknights too, partly because I read something on here, partly because I suspected it was making the night sweats worse. Two weeks in and I think it might actually be helping, though it's hard to tell yet. Has anyone gone in with written notes and had a GP take it well? I'm a bit worried about looking like I've self-diagnosed off the internet. I just cannot trust my memory in there. x