15 Jun
51 and I have got a GP appointment on Thursday and I am already panicking that I will walk in there and forget every single thing I have been struggling with for months. So I am writing it all down now, while I am tired and caffeinated and actually remember how bad it has been. The sleep is the main thing. I keep waking somewhere between 2.30 and 4am and then that is just it, I am awake, mind going ten to the dozen, heart doing a little performance. And then I have to go to work and function like a person. I have been doing a rough note each morning this week, just time I woke up, how anxious I felt, how bad the day was after. Nothing fancy, just so I have something concrete to show her rather than sitting there going "well I don't sleep great". I also want to ask about HRT properly this time. Last appointment I sort of hinted and she moved on and I let her, because I always do that. This time I have actually written it at the top of my notes: ASK ABOUT HRT AND SLEEP. In capitals so I cannot gloss over it. I have been cutting back on wine in the week as well, not because anyone told me to, just noticed it made the 3am thing much worse. Three weeks of mostly not drinking Sunday to Thursday and honestly the nights are... slightly less catastrophic? Still not good but slightly less. Anyone else had to fight a bit to get taken seriously about the sleep stuff? I don't want to go in dramatic but I also don't want to come out with nothing again x