5d ago
42 and I keep opening period tracking apps and feeling like a complete alien. They're all pastel colours and fertility windows and "trying to conceive" tick boxes. I am not trying to conceive. I am trying to work out why my cycle went from 28 days like clockwork to 24 then 31 then 22 in the space of four months with no explanation whatsoever. But then I come to spaces like this and everyone seems to be talking about hot flushes and HRT and I think... am I even in the right place? I'm 42. Surely that's too young? Except apparently it isn't. I've been reading back through posts here and honestly it's the first time I've felt less like I'm imagining things. What I've started doing, very quietly, is just writing down when my period arrives and roughly how I felt the week before. Not in an app. Just in the notes on my phone. Because I've got a GP appointment next month and last time she asked "have your cycles changed" and I said "I think so?" and she sort of moved on. I want to actually be able to say yes, here's what changed and when. Not sound vague. Not get fobbed off. Also started eating something proper before I leave the house in the morning because apparently running on coffee until noon was not, in fact, fine. Jury's still out on whether it's helping the 11am crash but it feels like the sensible thing to try. Anyone else in this weird in-between age? x