finally went

I booked the appointment in January and then rebooked it twice. The second time I cancelled I told myself it was because of work but it wasn't, it was because I didn't want to sit there and try to explain something I couldn't quite name. Anyway I went on Tuesday. I had notes on my phone, which felt a bit much, but I read from them anyway because otherwise I would have mentioned the sleep and forgotten everything else. The GP was fine. Not warm exactly, but she listened and she didn't look at the clock. We talked about cycles, the weight that has shifted around my middle without me doing anything differently, and the nights where I wake up feeling like I've been wrung out. She wants bloods first. I said that was fine. I don't know what I'm hoping for from the results, some kind of confirmation I suppose, though I know it doesn't always work like that. I came out and stood in the car park for a bit. Not upset. Just a bit wrung out again, in a different way. I've got a follow-up in six weeks.