6d ago
Okay so I don't want to be that person who swoops in with a "I fixed it" post because honestly I know how much those can sting when you're in the thick of it. But I promised myself if things got better I'd come back and say so, because I really needed to read posts like this when I was at my worst. About eight weeks ago I was waking up soaked through at 2am, then lying there with my heart pounding for an hour, then dragging myself through the day on fumes. The hot flashes were relentless. I was snapping at my kids, crying in the car, convinced I was just falling apart permanently. I did eventually get to see a different OBGYN after my first one basically shrugged at me, and things have slowly shifted. I'm also just... eating breakfast now. Like actually eating it, with protein, before I do anything else. I started tracking my sleep and mood in a little notes app, nothing fancy, just a line or two each morning. I can look back and see that the really bad stretches were shorter than they felt at the time. That alone helped my brain stop catastrophizing. I also started doing some strength work twice a week. I don't know what's doing what, honestly. I'm not going to pretend I have it figured out. I still have bad nights. Last Tuesday was rough. But I have more good days than bad now and a few weeks ago I genuinely could not have said that. If you're in the awful part right now, I just want you to know it can shift. I remember reading posts like this and thinking "yeah but that won't be me" and I just want to gently push back on that. Sending so much love to this community. You got me through some really dark 3am moments. 💙 ETA: still have a follow-up appointment next month and there are things I still want to talk through, so not declaring victory, just... reporting in.