6d ago
Okay so my ovaries are still technically there and my doctor keeps saying "perimenopause" but everything happened SO fast after my surgery in March that I genuinely don't know how to describe what's going on to anyone. Like the standard timeline stuff I read doesn't fit. Hot flashes started within two weeks of my procedure. Two weeks. The women in most spaces are talking about a slow creep over years and I'm sitting here like... that is not my story at all. I've been keeping notes on my phone because I couldn't hold it all in my head anymore. Not a fancy app, just a note. Date, what hit me, how bad, did I sleep. Turns out I've had maybe four full nights of sleep since April. Four. Writing it down made that visible in a way that genuinely shocked me. Food-wise my appetite has been all over the place during recovery. Some days I just don't want to eat but I noticed I feel worse on those days so I've been making myself do eggs or Greek yogurt or whatever protein I can stomach even when nothing sounds good. No idea if it's doing anything but it feels like the one thing I can actually control right now. I have a follow-up next month and I am building a list of questions because last time I left feeling like I hadn't said half of what I meant to say. Top of the list: does the speed of onset change anything about what I should expect? Because nobody has addressed that and it's the thing keeping me up at 3am. Well. That and the hot flashes obviously.