8 Jun
45 and I feel genuinely homeless online when it comes to this stuff. The period tracker apps are all pastel and chirpy and aimed at someone trying to get pregnant. The menopause forums feel like they're for women who already know what they have and what they're taking. I'm just... somewhere in the middle? Cycles that used to be 27 days like clockwork are now 23, then 34, then 26 again. Nobody warned me that irregular could mean THIS irregular. I've started writing it down in my notes app because I couldn't remember when my last one was and that felt like something I should probably be able to answer at a GP appointment without going blank. Don't know what I'm expecting them to say. Don't know what I'd even ask. Just know that something has shifted and I can't tell if it's life being relentless or something actually changing. Probably both. Dinner tonight was pasta with whatever was in the fridge because I had nothing left by 6pm. That's been most of this week tbh. Glad this room exists even if I'm not sure I belong in it yet x