14 Jun
Okay so this is weird to admit but the walks are doing something to my head that I did not expect. Not my body. My body still feels like a stranger I'm renting from. Joints creaky, weight sitting differently than it ever has, and I ran out of steam by 2pm yesterday doing literally nothing strenuous. But the mood thing? When I get outside and just walk, even 12 minutes around the block, something shifts. I can't explain it scientifically and I'm not trying to. It just does. I'm also trying to get two strength sessions in per week. BEGINNER level. I'm talking resistance bands in my living room with a YouTube video made for people who are starting from actual zero. No gym. I cannot do the gym right now. The gym requires a version of me I don't currently have access to. The thing I keep bumping into is the fatigue question. Like where is the line between "this is good tired" and "you pushed too hard for where you actually are right now"? I genuinely don't know. I have a follow-up coming and I want to bring this up properly because I feel like I've just been told "exercise is good" without anyone helping me figure out what that means when your energy budget is this unpredictable. Lunch today was scrambled eggs with whatever was left in the fridge. Felt like a win honestly. Anyone else navigating the fatigue piece? How do you even describe it to a doctor without sounding like you're making excuses for not doing enough?