4d ago
45 and I genuinely don't know where I belong online anymore. The period tracking apps feel like they're built for someone trying to get pregnant in their twenties. The menopause forums feel like they're for women who've already arrived somewhere I haven't. I'm just... in between? My cycles have gone a bit strange in the last year, not dramatically, just different to how they used to be. Shorter sometimes. Heavier once or twice. The odd month where I feel absolutely wired for two weeks then completely flat. I started writing it down because I kept thinking "was that normal last year?" and I genuinely couldn't remember. I'm not sure I'm perimenopausal. I'm not sure I'm not. My GP hasn't been unhelpful exactly, just sort of... noncommittal. I've got an appointment in a few weeks and I want to actually say something useful rather than just "I feel a bit off". So I've been keeping a note of when my cycle starts, how long, how heavy, anything that feels different. Nothing fancy. Just a note in my phone so I have something concrete to show her. Weekday dinners are a disaster at the moment by the way. Two kids, both at that age where they have opinions about everything. I've basically given up trying to cook properly Tuesday through Thursday and I'm just doing whatever keeps us all upright. Pasta. Eggs. That sort of thing. No shame. Anyone else feel like they're in a kind of no-woman's-land with all this? x