I don't usually post long things but I've been sitting on this for a few weeks and I need to put it somewhere. I was really frightened a few months ago. Not just tired or uncomfortable, actually frightened. The sleep had gone completely, I was having hot flushes every hour through the night, and the mood stuff was so bad I didn't recognise myself. I cried in the supermarket over the bread. I'm not someone who cries in supermarkets. I kept telling myself to get a grip and that made everything worse. My first GP appointment I came away with a leaflet and a suggestion to try mindfulness. I'm not saying mindfulness is useless. I'm saying I hadn't slept properly in four months and I needed more than a leaflet. I went back. Different GP. She actually listened. Things have shifted since then. Not fixed, not perfect, still some bad nights, still some days where the fog is thick. But I slept five hours in a row last Tuesday and I nearly texted everyone I know. I'm writing this because I remember reading posts in here when I was at my worst and thinking, will I ever feel a bit better. So if you're there right now, in that frightened place, I just wanted to say: it can shift. I can't tell you how or when because everyone seems to be different. I'm just noting that it did for me, at least a little. Still got things to sort at my follow-up next month. But I wanted to come back and say something other than a complaint for once x