6 Jun
42 and I genuinely don't know where I fit. The menopause forums feel like they're for women whose kids are grown and who have a folder of blood results. The period apps want me to log my mood with a little sun emoji and tell me my fertile window like I care. Neither one is for me right now. My cycles have been doing something weird for about eight months. Used to be 28 days, reliable as anything. Now it's 24, then 31, then 26, then I had one that was just... odd. Lighter, then heavier, then done in four days when I normally go six. I only noticed because I started jotting it down in my notes app after the third one caught me off guard. I keep thinking I should bring it up with my GP but I don't know how to say it without sounding like I've been down a rabbit hole at midnight (I have, obviously). What do I even say? "My periods have changed but I'm not in pain and my smear was fine and I'm probably just stressed"? That's exactly what I'd say and then I'd walk out with nothing. Anyway. Just eating something proper before work has been the one thing that actually makes the 11am brain fog slightly less awful. Not a cure. Just less grim. That's about the level of progress I'm at. x