14 Jun
52 and I went for a walk yesterday mostly just to get out of the house and not think about how tired I was. And here's the weird thing. I came back and I wasn't... fixed. Still tired. Still stiff. But something had shifted just slightly, like the volume got turned down a notch on whatever low-grade dread I'd been carrying around all morning. I don't know how to explain it better than that. I've been doing this maybe four or five times now over the past two weeks. Nothing long. Sometimes fifteen minutes, sometimes I just get to the end of the block and turn around because my knees are being dramatic. But I keep noticing the same thing afterwards. Not better exactly. Just... quieter inside. Also started doing a little mobility stuff before bed. Found a short video online, nothing intense, mostly just moving my hips and shoulders around slowly. I genuinely don't know if it's doing anything for the joints yet but it's become this nice weird ritual where I'm not on my phone and I'm not trying to fall asleep and I'm not catastrophizing about tomorrow. So I'm keeping it. One thing I want to bring up at my next appointment is the fatigue piece specifically. Like at what point is being this tired a limit on what movement I should even be attempting? Because some days I push through a walk and feel okay and some days I come home and need to lie down like I ran a 5K. I want to ask about that before I decide I'm doing something wrong.