17 Jun
42 and I genuinely do not know where I fit anymore. The period apps are all pastel colours and ovulation stickers and "trying to conceive" tick boxes. I am not trying to conceive. I am trying to figure out why my cycle has gone from 28 days like clockwork to anywhere between 23 and 37 with no apparent logic. But then I come into spaces like this and feel like I should be older? Like I haven't earned the right to be confused yet? Someone at work mentioned perimenopause last year and I laughed it off. I was 41. Surely not. Except now I'm keeping a little notes doc on my phone. Just cycle dates, and whether I felt completely wired and couldn't sleep, or crashed by 7pm, or cried at something embarrassing on telly. Mostly I eat something proper in the morning and I've noticed I feel less unhinged on the days I do that. Might be nothing. Probably nothing. GP appointment next month and I want to mention the cycle changes without sounding like I've been down a rabbit hole at midnight (I have, obviously). Does anyone else worry about how to say "something has changed" without the doctor just nodding and saying stress? x