4d ago
Okay so the walks are doing something I didn't expect. Like not fixing anything exactly, the weight is still the weight, the joints still creak, I still wake up at 3am feeling like a cursed Victorian ghost. But my mood after even a 15 minute walk is... different? Quieter somehow. I've been postmeno for about two years and I sort of gave up on "movement" as a concept because every attempt turned into some whole thing I couldn't sustain. This week I actually did both of my beginner strength sessions. Just bodyweight stuff I found online, nothing dramatic. I had to stop and rest more than I thought I would and that was humbling honestly. The fatigue wall is real and I'm trying to figure out what's a reasonable limit vs what's me just being scared. That's actually something I want to ask my OBGYN about at my next appointment because I genuinely don't know when tired means stop vs tired means push gently. Lunch has been weirdly helpful too, I started actually eating a real one instead of crackers at my desk at 2pm, and the afternoon feels less apocalyptic. Not a transformation story. Just... the walks help my head even when nothing else shifts. That feels worth noting.