16 Jun
55 and I genuinely thought I knew what was coming. Hot flushes, yes. The mood stuff, fine, I'd read about that. But nobody warned me that one day intimacy would just feel... different. Not bad necessarily, just unfamiliar. Like my body quietly changed the locks and forgot to tell me. My husband is lovely and patient and we don't really talk about it, which is probably the problem. I don't know how to start that conversation without making it sound like a complaint or a diagnosis. I've got a GP appointment in two weeks and I've actually been writing things down this time. Symptoms, when they happen, how they feel. Because every time I've tried to bring this stuff up in an appointment I go blank and come out having talked about my blood pressure instead. So this time I've got it written out. Dryness (there, I said it), discomfort, a UTI that wasn't actually a UTI, and the fact that I just don't feel like myself in that particular way anymore. Also separately trying to eat better, not for weight, just because when I eat well I feel more like a person who exists in her body rather than just tolerating it. Small thing but it seems to matter. Anyone else had to write themselves a script just to talk to their GP? 😩