Hi all. I posted here a while back when I was in a really dark patch, couldn't sleep, flushes every couple of hours, felt like I was disappearing into myself. I said I'd come back if things shifted and, well, things have shifted a bit so here I am. I don't want to be one of those posts that makes it sound like everything is fixed and perfect, because it isn't. But I had a week last week where I slept four nights in a row without waking more than once. Four nights. I actually cried on the Thursday morning because I'd forgotten what that felt like. What I've been doing differently, not saying any of this is the reason, just noting it for myself really: I've been keeping a sleep and mood diary. Just a notes app, nothing fancy. It helped me go to my follow-up appointment with something real to show rather than just feeling like I was catastrophising. I've been trying to eat something proper in the evening rather than picking at whatever's easiest. Simple dinners, nothing complicated. I noticed I sleep worse when I skip a proper meal and I don't fully understand why but I've written it down. I'm still on HRT and we've been tweaking things. I won't go into detail because everyone's situation is different and I really don't want to accidentally nudge anyone in a direction that isn't right for them. My GP has been much better since I started bringing notes. There's still stuff that needs attention. Energy isn't back fully. Mood is better but fragile. I've got another appointment next month and I've already started a list of what still needs looking at. I just wanted to say to anyone who's in that really frightening early bit: it felt permanent to me. It doesn't feel permanent now. That's all. x