13 Jun
53 and I have genuinely started printing out my own meeting agendas just so I have something to anchor me. Not because I'm organised. Because if I don't have words in front of me I will lose my thread mid-sentence and just... trail off while six people stare at me. It happened on Tuesday. I was chairing. I chaired the same monthly catch-up I have chaired for four years and I forgot what we were supposed to be discussing next. Just gone. I covered it but my face went red and I spent the rest of the day feeling like a fraud. I've started keeping a little notebook open on my desk during calls too. Not minutes, just anchors. A word or two so if my brain skips I can look down and find my place again. It helps a bit. The afternoons are the worst. By three o'clock I'm running on nothing and I've been trying something this week, keeping some nuts and a bit of cheese at my desk instead of going for the biscuits in the kitchen, to see if that helps the 3pm slump. Early days. No conclusions yet. I do want to talk to my GP about whether this level of fog is hormonal or whether I've just quietly broken. I want to go in with actual examples rather than "I feel a bit fuzzy sometimes" because I know how that sounds. Has anyone managed to get their GP to take the cognitive stuff seriously? x