5d ago
46 and I genuinely did not see it coming. Like one day things were just... fine. Normal. And then somewhere in the last year or so intimacy started feeling different and I couldn't even explain it properly to myself let alone to my husband. It wasn't that I didn't want to. It was more like my body had quietly changed the rules without telling me. I've been trying to write things down before my GP appointment because I know I'll go blank the second I'm in that room. Stuff like when it hurts, what kind of hurt, whether it's all the time or just certain moments. It feels so strange to be making notes about something so private. But I also know if I don't write it down I'll just say "I'm a bit tired" and come home with nothing. Has anyone else found it hard to find the actual words for this? Not the embarrassment of saying it out loud (though that too 😩), but literally not knowing how to describe it to a doctor? I want to say something like "it feels raw" or "there's a dryness that's affecting everything" but I'm worried they'll just hand me some leaflet and send me on my way. Anyhow. Writing it here felt easier than I expected. x