12 Jun
I've been meaning to write this for a few days because I kept waiting to see if it would hold. It has, mostly. So here I am. About eight weeks ago I was in a pretty dark place with the sleep. Waking at all hours, hot flushes that felt almost theatrical they were so relentless, and this sort of low-grade dread that sat on my chest from the moment I opened my eyes. I remember reading posts in here and feeling both comforted and quietly desperate, thinking, will I ever get to write one of these 'things are better' posts? I'm not going to tell anyone what to do because I genuinely don't know what has made the difference, or whether it's one thing or several things or just time. What I can say is that I have been eating the same breakfast most mornings (eggs, usually, or sometimes yogurt with something in it) and I've been walking, not dramatically, just around the block after dinner when I can face it. And I had a follow-up with my GP who actually listened this time, which I think mattered more than I realised it would. The sleep is not perfect. Last night I woke at 4am and lay there for a bit. But I went back to sleep, which I wasn't doing before. The flushes are quieter. My mood is... recognisably mine again, which sounds small but honestly it's the thing I missed most. I just wanted to put this here for anyone who is in the thick of it right now. I know one person's better week means nothing really. But when I was struggling I needed to read that it could shift. So. It can shift. Sending a lot of warmth to anyone who needs it today x